Day 94 / 108 Challenge

#94

"I bow for peace within countries that have been separated for no reason."

Like a wounded beast hide in a cave would not move until it is healed, I did the same. The emotional wound was negligible, but it was more physical. However, I thank myself for sticking to the routine which undoubtedly saved myself from getting any sicker in the past week. Regularly eating healthy meals, exercising, washing my face and body, and most importantly getting good sleep should be done no matter how bad or busy the life is. I find that we build internal wounds when any one of them is missed.

Lately I am learning the importance of resting, and letting go. By letting go of the fear that I am wasting my life when I am not doing anything, or to be more precise, when I am not presented as busy I was finally able to recharge. For the past 3 months or so, I was obsessed with pushing myself harder by filling up my waking hours to the minute. When someone asked me, "what do you do for fun?" I was not able to respond other than "I do not really have time for that." At the time I did not realize how dangerous it was. But I am sure I can find few days in this 108 day journal series where I felt burnt out during those time.

I think the break up was the final tipping point where I realized I needed to drop everything and reevaluate my current state. And I am so thankful for that to have happened, despite how shitty it felt at the time. Without it happening I must have been still suffering from the confusion of who I am, what I want, what I need to do, and most definitely not being PRESENT.

When I let go of everything I was finally able to see everything in my life clearly and to prioritize properly. This is another proof that "Less is more."

I must say that I became so HAPPY ever since I started being present and enjoying the journey versus being stuck in the past or worrying about the future. Self discovering part is exciting too, as I discover WHO I AM more and better.

To sum up, one thing is getting clearer than ever. I do not need much to be happy. Especially when it comes to money I have a better idea of where to spend to make myself the happiest. This is something I can touch more on tomorrow.

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Challenge Log

Requirements
No Snacks No drinks or desserts exceeding weekly limit	No snacks
Water intake (max 2L)	1.5L
2x Pomodoro flows (read min. 10 pages)	Buddhist teaching
Productive activity (write a journal or a blog; create a product)	Journalling
Physical activity (min. 45 minutes)	SICK DAY
Wildcard (any 1 of read/produce/exercise above)	(EXERCISE) Stairs in the house

What I am thankful for today

++ I am thankful to have a roof over my head that protects me from the cold and the rain. That I have a safe space to rest in. And it does not have to be big at all. Just need my bed, kitchen, bathroom, and laundry room. Anything else is nice-to-have's.

Drink/Dessert tickets remaining: 2