Day 93 / 108 Challenge

#93

"I bow for the peace of my neighbour."

The depth of the wound got definitely shallower. It almost feels like a paper cut at this point. I feel like I am getting closer to my normal self, who is calm, relaxed, yet focused, and present in the moment.

I had a dinner with my friend, and it reminded me how enjoyable life can be when you are present and feed off of each other's positive energy. It also made me realize that I would rather spend time with people I actually enjoy my time with than spend time with people I feel obligated to maintain the relationship with. I still cannot tell what determines that difference, but one thing I am sure is that I can tell when I genuinely enjoy (this friend being one of them) the time with them. It is when I can be fully myself, have fun or thought provoking conversations, care about each others' well being, and be willing to be present when the others need me. And it does not have to be romantic either. The boundary is crucial, but I am starting to understand what platonic relationship feels like.

Otherwise, I enjoy spending time on my own as well, especially now that I am discovering myself even better. I am mindful about what I want and like in my life. I am a pretty easy going person, and adaptive, but I think I should still have an idea of what I prefer. For a next little while, I will be focused on that. What do I want in the future? Where do I want to live? What kind of lifestyle? All of these questions seem so important, yet I never had the conversation with myself deeply so far.

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Challenge Log

Requirements
No Snacks No drinks or desserts exceeding weekly limit	No snacks
Water intake (max 2L)	2L
2x Pomodoro flows (read min. 10 pages)	Housing market
Productive activity (write a journal or a blog; create a product)	Journalling
Physical activity (min. 45 minutes)	PUSH DAY 1. Bench 205lb 2-3-4-3 2. Close-grip bench 135lb 4x6 (1min break) 10s break super sets== 3A. Incline DB 1.5 bench 40lb 4x6 3B. BB curl 40lb 4x8 4A. Dips 10-10-10-8 4B. DB curl 10lb 4x8 5. Leg raise 3s eccentric 3x10
Wildcard (any 1 of read/produce/exercise above)	(EXERCISE) Outdoor walk

What I am thankful for today

++ I am thankful to have a friend that I can connect well with and who is supportive of me.

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