Day 73 / 108 Challenge

#73

"I bow for moderation, even when I have enough to waste."

What an emotional week it has been. I really needed to learn how to pause and rest. I had to skip the past 2 days worth of journalling because I was too overwhelmed with the move and the renovation project. It got to a point where I was falling apart.

Thankfully, I have people around me that care and was able to be there for me. However, I did not like how my misery was affecting others. It took me awhile, but I am starting to feel back to my normal self. I can feel my natural loving energy constantly being regenerated in my heart, which was a good indication of my healing process.

I must say that I need to be careful not to mistake this with my fully-healed self, because I started to overwhelm myself again by taking on too many responsibilities. It clearly was too much for me to process all at once, so I must prioritize and get things off of my plate before even remotely thinking about taking on a new project.

Over the past few days I realized my priorities were:

1. Improving myself, such as working out, reading, learning-like things that I came to conclusion that it would benefit me in the long run.

2. My relationships. Especially romantic partner, family, and friends.

3. My career in wealth management and making the world a happier place

Since the house project was destroying all of those top priorities, I had to realize that those matter more to me than making money in this real estate transaction.

Back to my point, I must focus on resting at this time because I feel very fragile. I am eager to get back to my productive self, but I am wounded. Continuing to push forward while being fatally wounded is not a smart idea, especially when there is no real rush on the things that I push forward on. I must take the next few weeks to heal properly, and slowly pick things back up.

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Challenge Log

Requirements
No Snacks No drinks or desserts exceeding weekly limit	No snacks
Water intake (max 2L)	1.5L
2x Pomodoro flows (read min. 10 pages)	Investment research
Productive activity (write a journal or a blog; create a product)	Journalling
Physical activity (min. 45 minutes)	LEG DAY - de-load 1. Squat 185lb 4x8 2. Front squat 135lb 4x8 3A. Leg curl 80lb 4x8 3B. Rear delt raise 10lb 4x8 4A. Static forward lunge 25lb 4x8 4B. Arnold press 25lb 4x8 5. Leg raise 15lb 3x6 6. Leg raise 3x10
Wildcard (any 1 of read/produce/exercise above)	(PRODUCE) Moving, prepare for the second real estate deal close

Should've/Would've/Could've

-- Pay attention to you taking on more projects. Must let yourself rest, and focus on one thing at a time.

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